PMA Starts Now / Life Update

This year has been a pretty big emotional roller coaster for me. It seems like anytime everything is going as it should be, something ends up happening to fuck it all up. I've been trying really hard to be a positive person. It's definitely been a struggle. Numerous break downs, emotionally unstable at times.

But you know what? Fuck all of that. Life is way to short to be dwelling about things, trying to control things that cannot be controlled, being sad, sleeping too much, being insecure, being jealous when I have no reason to be,listening to music that brings me down. I'm putting my foot down. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. 

It's time to be happy. It's time to make changes. It's time to be the best fiancee I can be. It's time to be the best Mom I can be. It's time to smile all the time. It's time to let loose and live my life. It's time to explore the unknown, take it all in.

 I am going to stop taking things for granted and start taking advantage of all of the good things in my life. Like this beautiful little girl to whom I get to be a part time Mom to. Being a Mom is still so new to me but she is perfect, she's artistic, she's funny, she's always happy, and the best part she is always telling me how much she loves me. She's my little ballerina princess who loves to dance, play music and is always wanting tattoos. How can you not fall in love with that face?

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 Then there is this guy who is my best friend, my soul mate, who I get to marry in July and spend the rest of my life with. He deserves the best and I need to give him that. We have been through a lot but we have always survived. We love each other to the moon and back. He is so positive, always trying to see the best in any situation, someone who has more confidence in me then I do with myself, he pushes me to be a better person and I strive to be more like him. I love you Preston Scott Ozell Leigh.

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I know that was kind of gushy mushy, but sometimes I gotta get personal with ya'll. Let's lighten it up a little bit. 

Currently I am reading Lords of Salem by the masterful Mr. Rob Zombie. I am a little more than half way through. It's really good so far. The only thing I don't like is his writing is pretty elementary. It takes some time to get used to. But it's his first book, so can't judge him too bad. Super excited for the movie to come out. I love that he always puts his wife Sheri Moon Zombie in his movies cuz she is one super fine gal. They make the sexiest couple ever don't you think?

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Work is still as slow as ever for me. It seems like the engineers are getting a lot more work these days. We have hired a couple new guys, so that is a good sign. But I don't see my job getting busier anytime soon. So just been working on my years worth of scanning in correspondence and unstapling for hours on end. Thank goodness for music right. Lately I have been listening to a lot of Atmosphere and Sage Francis. Preston hates hip hop so I only get to listen to my underground artists while at work. I do switch it up though. Lately it's been Rob Zombie, a lot of Garage Rock. If you haven't listened to any Garage Rock and you love upbeat super positive, little surfy sounding with a bit of a punk sound you should try listening to some of these bands.  I'll link you to one song from each band.. Nobunny, The Black Lips, Reigning Sound, FIDLAR, King Tuff.

If you check them out and you like what you hear and would like some more recommendations, give me a shout!! Preston got me into Garage Rock. I had never listened to it before. Anytime I am in a downer mood and throw some of this on, it never fails to put me in a fantastic mood.

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I have been obsessed with eating fruit parfaits. The ones from Fresh and Easy are the tits. Yummy yogurt with strawberries, blueberries and granola. Mmmm So good. When I have a sweet tooth they are always my go to food and it's healthy. 

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I have some fun stuff planned. What's going on with you guys? Any new things you want to share, music I should be listening too? Send me a line. I'd like to get to know some of you, I don't bite!!